I swear I never felt so depressed in my 19 years living till today.
I have to deal with college, assignments, presentations, trainings, taekwondo, physiotherapy, parents, family, people asking me to change, telling me how I am, telling me how ugly I am.
Shit hurts yaw.
Those shits hurt, so bad.
I'm only 19 and I'm already feeling tired of life. WHY.
I should be enjoying my last year as a teen and not care about life so quickly.
I had tried to change, but I guess that's just not good enough for everyone.
I'm sorry.
I can't live up to your expectations.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm stupid.
I'm sorry for being ugly.
I'm sorry for being fat.
I'm sorry for voicing out my opinions.
I'm sorry I live.
I'm sorry for being me.
I'm never anyone's first choice.
It's hard being me.
Everything I do is never good enough for anyone.
I'm just asking for alil love, not asking for much.
I want to come home happy.
I wish I could chase my dreams.
But I guess all those things only exist in a dream.
Been crying myself to sleep for 3 days straight.
Not eating right.
Being yelled at where ever I go.
It feels like whatever I do is wrong.
I'm sorry to love someone is a crime.
It sucks to see someone you love, love someone else.
It sucks that people only look for you when they need something.
It sucks how much someone who is so close to you suddenly disappear just like that.
It sucks how someone can give you so much hope and it all ends up as false hopes.
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing."
No comments:
Post a Comment